Looking around the train car like wow. Every old person in here has been young and every young person is going to be old some day. We are all the same <3
none of the people in my former group got my idea and also my professor was like be practical be realistic basically. so I changed my presentation to revolve around something less broad and more concrete — and then a girl in my course asked about the change and told me she liked the first idea. And another one also said she got the concept but not the details yesterday. But fundamentally I think I was just very unlucky with the group I got put in, in terms of comparability and commonalities between us in the dynamic…. But today was less tense and now I’m going HOME! For the weekend. Blessed.
Interpersonal conflict is sooo somatically draining. I’ve been vibrating to the tune of anger and miscommunication all day today until I could go out on my own like MAN I burnt my bridges but oh well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Oh my professor allowed me to work alone on the project. I’m letting out the biggest sigh of relief and a little dance of excitement about this freedom and recognition!! I was so sure she would say no
ahhh I want to work alone I want to be given space to go all in, want to not be too much and too abstract and too difficult to understand, I’m so tired of being put in this box and never been seen or heard properly
amazing book and my favourite tea blend was present in the space we’re at today so it felt tailored to me specifically. and I had a nice talk with my professor who allowed me to borrow the book for my train ride back. It’s about weaving and computers!! And poetry!! I feel the universe extending a hand to me. Rare and special feeling for me
Everyone in my elective summer course is so nice and friendly but my favourite person yet is an exchange student, she came over and ruffled my bangs so they looked nicer, she shared a raw mushroom snack (?) with me, asked about my boyfriend, encouraged me to lay down on the floor when I felt weird and sat down with me, wanted to go with me to get dinner when they forgot me, invited me to the Airbnb she is staying at ☺️☺️ reflecting on it now at home I’m like wow I need to befriend SEVERAL people here for real and. Not let them be the ones who got away (platonically)
